Tell me again why I chose teaching?

When I woke up this morning, my left eye was itchy and red. Things were a bit blurry. At nearly 1:00 in the morning, my left eye is still itchy, still red, and still a bit blurry. Although I've never had it before, I'm pretty sure I have pink eye. After I finish making this post, I think I'm going to look it up online.

It isn't killing me, but it also isn't comfy. Part of me wants it gone now, but part of me wants it to stick around until Monday and see if it is cause to be sent home from work. If it is still around, I think I'll say something to someone and see. By working at a daycare, I'm pretty sure they have guidelines as to working while harboring a contagious anything and although I don 't know much of anything about pink eye, I know that it is contagious which would be problematic if I do, in fact, have it.

I will find out a lot about the people I work for and their intentions if I do still have this issue on Monday. If they send me home, I will know that at least on this issue, they do care about the well-being of everyone. If they shrug it off, I will have a suspicion otherwise. They are asking me to work late due to a short staff on Monday to begin with (luckily, they don't want me in until 9 that day) so having yet another staff member out would be tough. I know that I won't call in because I've done that recently so it will all truly be their call.

I don't plan on making a doctor's visit; I don't have insurance until January and I don't feel like the out-of-pocket expense of having some guy probe around my eye. I'm terrified of doctors and eye-probing anyhow so I'm hoping it goes away on its own. If I look it up, however, and find that my eye will fall out or the equivalent I'll suck it up. I enjoy my vision too much to risk losing any sight, I've always said if I had to choose, I'd rather be Deaf than blind.

Regardless of any of this, the fact of the matter is that there is a good chance that I have pink eye. If my hunch is in fact correct, it means that I likely got it from one of my little darlings at school. All I've got to say about that is "grrrrrrrr".

EDIT: I don't think a doctor is needed. According to the internet (which of course is always right), it usually will get better within "a few" days. There's definitely no need to pay 50 bucks for a doctor to tell me that when google does it for free. Also, if I'm very careful about NOT touching my eye and frequent hand washings, I should be able to prevent spreading it, although it is spread through touch. I'm not sure what the official policy for that is at work, but I'm about to find out on Monday unless it does get better by then which is a possibility depending on when I actually acquired this pink eye and what the website's definition of "a few days" means. Either way, I doubt my eye will fall out.